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Post by c0nf3ss!0ns on Nov 8, 2008 1:04:14 GMT -5
She suddenly couldn't help herself from holding in all she was thinking. "Mossface!! Everything is just so out of place. I feel wrong in my own paws these days. I feel like there is something beyond these borders, that I'm missing. And I want it, Mossface, but its so out of reach..." Heatherfur didn't even know what she was exactly talking about. Something groped around in her heart, searching for something that was not there...
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Post by [\.Mossy./] on Nov 8, 2008 1:08:34 GMT -5
Trapped... "You feel trapped, as I do?". "ThunderClan is a chaotic place now, now that Lakestar is completely insane... now that he's giving us a place of doom. I fear that in the future we may be known for our negative reputation in our clans, though that's not what StarClan speaks of. It's either we find a way to exile Lakestar, or remove him from his position. But that would... turn everything upside-down." Shaking his head, Mossface sighed. "I'm thinking out-loud, aren't I?".
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Post by c0nf3ss!0ns on Nov 8, 2008 1:13:02 GMT -5
Heatherfur listened intently, but she felt like this was problem, among other problems. She didn't know the other problems, and this frustrated her. How was she supposed to fix problems if she didn't know what they were in the first place? She nodded, keeping her thoughts in her mind, "Yes. And its like, even though we can do anything in the world to fix it, we really can't...does that make sense?" Heatherfur was puzzled by why she was talking in such code.
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Post by [\.Mossy./] on Nov 8, 2008 1:19:53 GMT -5
Interesting... "Surprisingly, it feels like that. However, I know I can do things to stop it... they're just risky, moreso an ambition of young warriors than that of an older medicine cat. Though if it gets to that point, I will do as I need to... if I can." He sighed, lashing his tail about in frustration. "They'd all work in favor of Lakestar. He could use my actions as an excuse as to why he's right and I am wrong... would warriors truely betray StarClan?". Sighing again, he took a moment to think. "... would they?". He looked up at the sky. "I don't know, not our ancestors... the one who guide us...". For a medicine cat who tried to hide his emotion, Mossface seemed unusually upset.
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Post by c0nf3ss!0ns on Nov 8, 2008 1:23:57 GMT -5
Heatherfur silently decided whether to ask a question that was repeating in her mind over and over again, until she just blurted it out : "What if StarClan don't know everything, like everyone says they do? If they did, why do they make so many cats suffer, Mossface?" She immediately regretted saying this to her medicine cat, who was devoted to StarClan. She had been one to hold in her emotions. So why were they pouring out of her now?
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Post by [\.Mossy./] on Nov 8, 2008 1:27:16 GMT -5
I don't agree, but it's not that bad. "Have you been listening to the mousedung Lakestar speaks of?" Mossface asked, trying his best to not bristle up. For some reason, he couldn't answer those questions... not in a good way, that is. Dumbfoundedly, Mossface looked over Heatherfur's shoulder. "... I ... don't know..." he admitted, though like someone in a trance. "It won't stop me from believeing in them. They've never failed our clans, their sole duty to watch over us, and make sure we survive...". Instantly he regretted the words, feeling it made StarClan look selfish, and uncaring towards individual cats.
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Post by c0nf3ss!0ns on Nov 8, 2008 12:08:40 GMT -5
Heatherfur twitched her ear in bewilderment. StarClan may have helped the Clans before, but it seemed that they were abandoning them now. Heatherfur shuddered. What if StarClan had abandoned them? Would things go haywire? It baffled it her that even Mossface had admitted that he didn't know, so now, she was as unsure as ever. Suddenly, a new feeling pulsed through her : fury. How could StarClan just leave them? They had always looked to them for assistance and guidance! They can't just leave now! She tried to make sure she didn't insult StarClan again, so she thought before she spoke this time... "They haven't left us...have they?" She sounded like a newborn kit mewling for its mother.
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Post by [\.Mossy./] on Nov 8, 2008 22:21:00 GMT -5
I lie even to myself... "No, they are still with us." Mossface sighed. "They just seem further away due to Lakestar.". He could hope that was the truth. No, it was. "They wouldn't abandon us, not now, not ever." Mossface said, half trying to convince himself. He couldn't lose his faith in StarClan, he was a medicine cat, and he had to believe in them. "They'll be here, especially in our times of need. I promise you, I've seen them, I've heard from them. They exist, and they help us...".
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Post by c0nf3ss!0ns on Nov 9, 2008 13:59:21 GMT -5
Heatherfur studied Mossface's expression, trying to decipher if he had faith in his own words, or if he was just trying to prevent Heatherfur from fretting. His expression gave away nothing, nothing she could pick up at least. She prodded the ground with her forepaw, nervously. "But they don't seem to be helping us now. Do you think we could have possibly made them angry?" Heatherfur couldn't think of something the Clans could have done to anger StarClan, but she asked anyway, in case Mossface had been dreaming and didn't want to tell her. This was was fine with her, if it was the case, she had no right to know anyway, except her curiosity got the best of her.
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